JoannaAhti

PLEASE Someone, throw a Gatsby party! I want to party like Gatsby. 1920's style... Flapper for Halloween this year but.. ugh a party like that would be LOVELY. <3

I hope everyone has been having a great Thanksgiving weekend. I must say, while I do get a tad pessimistic at times because of the things that aren't always amazing, I do have a lot to be thankful for and I think it's important for everyone to remind themselves of those things on a daily basis. I have an amazing family; parents who would do anything for me, a sister who inspires me every day and a niece & nephew who make me a better person. My friends are always a text, call or facebook message away and I hope they know how much I love them- I wouldn't be who I am without all of you. To my boyfriend- I have too much to even say about you-

They all said it would get better. They always say it will get better, eventually. How long is "eventually"? What are the magic words that need to be said for "eventually" to be "now"? I start asking myself when this had begun to affect my life.  What was the turning point that made me, the person who smiled and laughed until I was red in the face, become the person who still does that but does not feel the beauty of those things on the inside?  I also wonder if any of my thoughts actually make sense.  Am I just depressed or am I clinically insane too? Life seems to be one very, very, long work week; a work week where each day needs a co